Someday-John Legend

since the first day i heard this song, i know i'd love it forever..

but now you’re gone and memories all I have for now ,but no it’s not over, we’ll get older, we’ll get over, we’ll live to see the day that I hope for come back to me. I still believe that, we’ll get it right again. we’ll come back to life again. we won’t say another goodbye again, you’ll live forever with me. someday, someday we’ll be together

I believe there is more to life..oh I love you much more than life itself..

but, i never realize how beautiful the lyrics is. i think i'm just being sensitive because of everything that's going on in life these several days.
why there are so many regret in our life. i have just lived for 20 years 10 months, and i've disappointed almost everyone i met in my whole life. i envy nice people. they maybe have been disappointed by most people who took them for granted or never realized their value. But let me tell you, nice people.. you're the lucky one. people hurt you cause they envy you. cause they wanted to see you hurt somebody else. they wanted to see even a really nice guy can fall.
but you never know what it's liked to hurt someone. it's the worst feeling ever. because you're hurt more.
the guilty feeling will never vanish and until you can say sorry, it'll never gone. but pride sometimes take place between them. i don't know if i like being adult or not. sometimes i like it cause now, i become more and more resistant to what other people say about me. i didn't give any fuck for them. if they didn't like my way, then fine. i have much more confident than what i had in high school. i just keep thinking, why can i never think like that when i was in High school.

actually i don't know if it's good or not, cause sometimes you really have to listen to people right?

what i don't like about being a grown-up is my pride is as high as a skyscraper. it's really hard to even say sorry. not because i don't want to it's just, i can't stand the embarrassment. ahh.. i hate it. but i know it's wrong. i've learn so much that you never know how much time you have before that chance's gone.

i never gonna back to the past. i hate my past. i never wanna going back and repeat it all again.
but i think i'm trapped in it. i run but it keep haunting me. i always hope someday i'll change and become a different person. but then i realize. there's no tomorrow! it's now or everything is just a big lie.

arghh, i'm such a drama queen and a cry-baby..but when it come to blog, everybody is fighting to be the most pittyful one right? hahaha..

#and now i realize how far this post from the title.. but, i've always diagnosed myself as Attention deficit disorder patient..hehe